1. |
hoof2fear
03:51
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god please hear me now
i don’t have anyone else i can think of to talk to
my entire existence is begging
to be infantilized
every joke i make is at its expense
i am the dumbest fuck you will ever talk to
i’m good at staying silent at least
until i’m not
little by little
i don’t think i’m going to live this
i could live through 3 lives and it wouldn’t be enough
i’m still a ʏdɒd
i’m trapped inside my own skull
i prefer to keep my hooves clean if only i could push through this world
what could i accomplish
no outside forces running hammers into my brain
maybe i could even have some form of control
i know i will not remember walking up the stairs
seeing the reflection on the edge of the window
maybe it’s a ufo
you’re just a filly trying to hold a rose
but you will always be born too late
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2. |
i would do anything
01:52
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3. |
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my brother told me he’s scared of what i’m turning into
and so am i
but not for the same reason
i’ve become such a negative person
im so scared to try much of anything
it’s a miracle you’re hearing this song
i can barely hold, i can barely hold. i can-
i have the right to destroy myself, until i don’t
i don’t know why i pretend like i’m worth much of anything when i’m alone
these abstractions in opinions
validity melts in my hand
dear god i hate myself
i’m just a filly trying to recreate the positivity i saw on screen
and i think i’m done
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4. |
crumbling
05:01
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THERE WAS A TIME NOT LONG AGO
WHERE THE WHOLE WORLD WAS COVERED IN SMOKE
ITS TOLD THAT THE SMOKE WAS SO THICK
YOU WOULD TRAVEL UNDER THE OCEAN TO SEE
TO TRAVEL THERE WAS A QUE
THEY’D FLOOD WITH NEW NAMES
NEW FACES UNDER HER EYES
NOW THERE WAS A PEGASUS’S SILHOUETTE
THEY SAID IT COULD REACH INTO YOUR SOUL
WITH JUST A LOOK IN THE EYE
NEXT IN LINE, AN ALICORN STOOD
KNOW ONE KNEW WHY
NO ONE KNEW FOR SURE
NOT EVEN THE ALICORN KNEW
WHAT IT MEANT TO BE SOMEONE LIKE HER
IN FACT SHE WAS THE MOST CONFUSED
OTHER PONIES WOULD DO THE GUESSING FOR HER
SOMETIMES SHE FELT AS IF HER HOOVES
WOULD MOVE ON THEIR OWN
THEY TAPPED THE PEGASUS’Sssssssssssss
SHE STARED
SHE STARED INTO ITS EYES
IT WHISPERED IN HER
NO ONE
NO ONE KNOWS
WHAT IT SAID TO HER
BUT THE ONES WHO TALKED TO HER WILL TELL YOU
SHE WAS NEVER THE SAME
SHE DIDNT AVOID THE TOPIC
IN FACT, SHE WAS MUCH HARSHER ABOUT IT THAN HER PEERS WERE TO HER
STILL, DESPITE THIS, SHE PLAYED THE ROLE AS IF SHE WERE JUST
ANYPONY ELSE
JUST
ANYPONY ELSE
JUST
ANYPONY ELSE
YOU WOULD NEVER SEE HER WINGS
SHE’D ALWAYS WEAR A CLOAK
BUT
SOCIAL PERCEPTION
WASNT THE TURNING WHEEL
LATE ONE NIGHT, SHE LOST CONTROL
ONLY OF HER ACTIONS, HER REACTION WAS UNDER CONTROL
SHE DIDNT EVEN SCREAM, BUT SHE ALLOWED HERSELF TO LAUGH
SHE TOOK EVERY PRECAUTION, SO NO ONE WOULD HAVE KNOWN
BUT SHE COULDNT RESIST
AND TOLD HER FRIENDS TO CALL FOR HELP
THEY FOUND BOTH HER WINGS STILL BLEEDING ON THE FLOOR
NEXT WAS A KITCHEN KNIFE, THOUGH IT DIDNT HAVE A DROP OF BLOOD
THEY HAD A HARD TIME LOOKING AT HER DIRECTLY IN THE EYES
WHETHER OR NOT SHE COULD TREAT THE WOUNDS IS IRRELEVANT
TRULY, SHE WANTED THEM TO KNOW
HOW MUCH SHE RESENTED IT
TO FULLY PROVE HERSELF
IT WAS THE ONLY WAY (she knew how)
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5. |
please (knife draw)
05:02
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god i’m so terrified
pass me the knife
sweating bullets in the convention room
i did it all for you
dashi, twilight, where did you go
i pray to have something to lose
filling up a glass of wires and sparks
i take it to the blowtorch
i synthesize new ways to die
i ruin everything
i push it into me
i
i’m not the mare i see
my wings are gone
but it’s not enough
i danced and flew tunnels throughout the atmosphere
i chipped signals and connections before i even sunk into the sand
i think i’m gonna do it
it will never be enough
i’ll throw everything behind me
just to see you bloom (x2)
none of this is enough
i’ll slam my face into the wall
i can’t do anything better
better
i was born yesterday
it’s all just one big joke
i need this horn off me
and my brains on the floor
everything i need is going to waste
i’m done doing this again
when will i break
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6. |
i can't sleep
02:10
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7. |
i see it all
03:16
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everything i say comes out as a joke
my feels are so much smaller than
how they engrave me
everything that hurts me
is so much smaller than what other people feel
it’s so fucking pathetic
everything that makes me up is questionable
but it’s okay because no one should have to want me
i saw your eyes in the dark
everyday just keeps getting harder
i know how to sabotage myself
i know how to sing a song no one will ever hear
why cant i be
why can everypony be
except for me
for me
what does this world want from me
what does this world want from me
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8. |
tongues
04:19
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how long has it been
i’m flashing on the floor thinking
my hooves are so ████
in every sense of the imagination i have failed
my brain is completely assorted and jumbled
i can’t remember where my things are
farther than i’ve ever been
i’m dancing inside the mirror
it isn’t
none of it is real
you thought objects could talk
you truly don’t understand any of this
you just have to trust me
there are different colours in my head now
they scatter and shoot around me
it was really nice to see you again
but i’ll always know how you push me
in this state of dizziness
i will always know how you put me there
i need to break out
constant self awareness
i held her hoof
just for a moment, oh just for a moment
i don’t think you’ll have to worry about someone else intruding here
the colours in everything, they all just fall apart
she’s so much like me
it’s easy to promise this because i know it’s true
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9. |
dust2dust
03:10
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idontthinkimmeidontknowwhatisicouldjusttouchititsahouseofcardsitcouldallfallaparticouldfallapart
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10. |
dotz
01:59
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11. |
soul
06:17
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